DAY 5

12-8-09

This process of Daniel's fast is so much bigger than I had anticipated.
Tuesday. My day did not start as I hoped. (with prayer and scripture)....it was not pretty. And I must say, the end of the day was a huge wake up call.

1 Corinthians 10:12 (New International Version)

12So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don't fall!

I fell. The interesting part is that temptation comes especially during the time you want to, plan to, and try to stand firm. When the circumstances change, and the day to day orderly manner is interrupted, It is like walking on ice for the first time.
is it possible not to slip? it is, but it is more likely that the cause of the fall is the choice to walk on this crisp thin ice. And as I walked, as carefully as I thought I may be, the ice did, and as always will, crush beneath and.. down I went.

It was the most humbling experience...when I was able to look at myself and feel the inpdescribable pain of disappointment. God showed me how perfect He is, and how imperfect I am, especially in His light...God showed me also, that I wasn't holding His hand..and at this time specifically, He was holding it out, offering his hand, the whole time.